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After being off of the world stage for 123 years, the second Polish Republic came to be on November 11th, 1918 when World War I was finally over. Poland ever since has seen so many figures grow and develop into figures that haven't only influenced Poland's history, but also the history of the world. Figures such as Roman Dmowski, Jozef Pilsudski, Maria Curi Sklodowska, and Ignacy Jan Paderewski have all change the way we understand the sciences, literature, music, and warfare. Poland would only stay around for about 21 years, as in 1929 it was invaded by Nazi Germany and the Societ Union. So now, with it being the 100th anniversary of this event I wanted to take time to remember this part of Poland's history. Poland being my motherland and my birthplace, it has a special place in my heart. I cheer on for every achievement we have, for we are a nation of many intelligent and elegant people, and we are projected to grow even further. Live on Poland, be free Poland, for you are Poland. The pictures I included are for a play I saw today at the Polish Language School under the patronage of the Jagiellonian University in Burr Ridge, IL.

I'm kind of at a point in my life at the moment where I just don't feel good. You know? Personally, I have no clue what is causing it. I have no clue what in the world is causing so many things to just go spoiled. I wouldn't say that I have a million of things on my head, I would have to say that it's all kinda under control. I really don't know anymore, and I don't think anyone knows anymore. But that's all right... because sometimes we all need to not know what we are doing in order to just take a break. You know?

What up bois....Ya girl is back and is still kinda stresso depresso. But it just really do be like that amirite ladies!! Anyways on to why I'm posting this. Last week I told the guy I like that I liked him and it was a bad idea. He's the same guy I was posting about earlier this year and why did I start liking him again??? I guess it was because I never really stopped, I just got distracted with everything about guard and I thought Marching Band would be a great continuous distraction from him, until he joined. Once band camp started I knew I was gonna be in deep shit with my feelings for him and I was right because obviously he doesn't like me back. And I guess I'm using this as an outlet to talk to people about it, without specifically talking to a certain person. It's a lot easier to post on here for me because at least on here I can't convince myself that I'm bothering someone because I'm not actually talking to someone. But I ended avoiding him last week because I didn't want him to look at him weirdly or worse watch him look at me differently. I guess that was pretty hypocritical of me since when I told him how I felt, I asked him not to act differently around me. I guess it's okay though because at our practice yesterday, he actually said my name and looked at me and I actually didn't feel awkward around him in the moment. It's weird though because I don't cry anymore when I think about the fact that he doesn't like me (I don't blame him though). I feel like I'm over him, but I see him being himself and I start thinking about how much I want to be the person making him smile and I feel like shit, but I don't cry because of him anymore. I don't really know what to make of it, so I guess I'm writing it down to make some sense of it.